Tuesday, April 21, 2009


This is a video a friend of mine made from the song "Beacon" by Goliath Flores. She dedicated it to her mother, but I just wanted to share it here because both the song and the video is so beatuiful.


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I am not alone

The last few months have been filled with planning and lots of unknowns as I am graduating college soon. Moving from my current house and not knowing where I will be living for the summer. Then what happens in the fall when I'm officially done my classes? Where should I work? Should I go to grad school? Do I want to get further in debt? What should I go to grad school for? What do I want to do/be? As all these questions were swimming through my mind, I broke down.
I was in Jacksonville with my family over Spring Break and had a very difficult time that week specifically sorting everything out within myself. I wish I had a picture of the future so I could pick the best steps to get there, but I don't know where i'll end up, and I certainly don't know the best way to get to that unknown point.
So on a Sunday morning in March while I was at church with my family, I felt God just say to me, "I will love you no matter what you choose to do"...and I just lost it. I cried and cried because of the joyous realization that I am loved no matter where I live or what I do for a living. The fact that I don't need to get a Masters in order for God to love me or "approve" was so relieving to realize.
Now, as graduation is just weeks away, I still have many unknowns. I have made some decisions that have allowed for more flexibility in my life and I know that everything will fall into place as time goes on. But since that Sunday in March, I know that no matter what decisions I make, I am not alone.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Passover and Easter

This was my first year celebrating Easter instead of Passover, which is what my Messianic Jewish family does every year. This year, however, I wasn't able to make it back to Jacksonville to be with my family, so I spent Resurrection Day with Josh's family in Niceville.

We went all out - I dyed eggs, did an easter egg hunt and even got an Easter basket from Josh's parents! I am so thankful to be embraced by his family and included in their traditions, and I couldn't ask for a better family to be surrounded by.

However, what this year taught me is that as always, Jesus is the reason for the season, and that this holiday is so much more than colored eggs and bunnies. My God is alive and rose from the grave and is coming back to us!!

Below are two links, one my Grammy wrote in her blog, and the other is an article she wrote of the misconceptions of Easter and the true meaning of Passover.
What's Wrong with Easter?

In the meantime, here are some pictures of my first Easter: