Friday, January 26, 2007

Leave it up to Carly to say it right

I found this song by Carly Simon "It Should Have Been Me". All of the words don't apply, considering I don't think it should have been me. Yet, some of them truly do. I'm putting up the ones that struck a chord in me. Words that have been tumbling around in my head and heart recently.

I think of you now and then
But I remember when love was new
And you were mine, my love
So why would we pretend
We were lovers and now we're friends
I don't want to say goodbye to you
Again, my love

What we once had is gone
No tears, no right, no wrong
It could never be the same again, my love
The more we see the less we know

My love, how would I survive
With another broken heart
On my own again
When I need a friend
To help me find a place to start

Surveying in the early AM

1. What Curse Word Do You Use The Most?
I drop the eff bomb occasionally (bad call, I hate when I do it)

2. Do You Own An Ipod?

sho do, but it stays in it's dock on my iSYmphony

3. What Person On Your Top 8 Do You Talk To The Most?

Katy Colton, Hector and Shir bir

4. What Time Is Your Alarm Clock Set To?

9:10....Ishould be waking up at 9 but its 3:30 and i'm just now getting home so you do the math

5. Do You Want To Fall In Love?

yeah but i'm not ready for that, i was at one point, but I want to know i'm ready next time, too much learning to do in the meantime....i'm young, got time

6. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's Cold?

flip flops = Gili's feet...its just the way it goes. c'mon i wore a tube top out tonight in the 30 degree live in florida you deal

7. Would You Rather Take The Picture Or Be In The Picture?

as conceited as this sounds, i'm always in the picture, even if i'm taking it....i wanna keep the memories!

8. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
The Scent of a Woman, omg...Al Pacino is the MAN!!!!!

9. Do Any Of Your Friends Have Children?

let me count for 5+ (craziness!)

10. Has Anyone Ever Called You Lazy?
oh yeah, its becoming more apparent every day

11. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?
i'll pop a tylenol PM every now and then....very rare though

12. What Cd Is Currently In Your Cd Player?


13. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?

oreo's and milk=love. ( gotta go with the lil sister on this one, must be in the blood)

14. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?

i have lots of good friends, secrets come and go

15. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?

today, gotta love drug reps bringing us shit at work all the time

16. Can You Whistle?
sho can, only the regular kind though, nothing fancy

18. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?

people talk about me behind my back so much they tell me about it, and thats not necessarily a good thing

19. Did You Watch Cartoons As A Child?

never ever. (again, agreeing with the kin, we grew up in the same house)

20. What movie do you know every line to?
rush hour, wedding crashers, rent, wild wild west, prince of egypt, aladdin, beauty and the beast, any disney movie actually. um dirty dancing, coach carter, basically any movie that was ever on during a plane ride over and over again. miss congeniality. HAHA I kept Shiri's whole's a few more: The Notebook (shiri knows all of that one too, she just forgot), Save the Last Dance, The Devil Wears Prada, My Best Friends Wedding, Grease, ........

21. Have You Ever Done The Dirty In A Field?

sand dunes?

23. Do You Own Any Band T-Shirts?

can't say that I do...

24. What Is Your Favorite Salad Dressing?

Ranch all the way baby

25. Is Anyone In Love With You?

I can asure you - no!

26. Do You Do Your Own Dishes?

I try to make mom happy

27. Ever Cry In Public?

If I do, thats me, deal with it. not afraid to, thats for sure, but I try not to make a habit of it.

28. Are You On A Desktop Computer Or A Lap Top?


29. Are You Currently Wanting Any Piercings Or Tattoos?

tattoo please!

30. What's The Weather Like?
c-c-c-c-olllddddd, but I don't need a jacket!

31. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?

I just dont know if I could do it.....

32. What Did You Do Before This?
Pearl baby!!

33. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?

dang...can'teven remember

34. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?

less than I thought

35. Do You Eat Breakfast Daily?

lately I"ve been eating those special K bars

36. Are Your Days Full And Fast Paced?

usually always fast pased - something always comes up

37. Do You Pay Attention To The Calories In The Package/Box?
heck naw, I'll look sometimes but its no biggie

38. Do You Use Sarcasm?

me??? NEvER! HA!!

40. Are You Picky About Spelling And Grammar?

i"m an english nerd allllll the way!

41. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?


43. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?

Opposite mostly...I have like 2 girl friends...just the way it is

44. Do You Like Mustard?

yep, spicy, not yellow

45. Do You Sleep On Your Side, Stomach Or Back?

side, always

46. Do You Watch The News?

really only the Today show

47. How Did You Get One Of Your Scars?

on the palm of my hand pulling down a suticase on wooden stairs Christmas in philly like a zillion years ago

48. Who Was The Last Person To Make You Mad?
Probably German, hehehe j/k honey, love ya!

49. Do You Like Anybody?

can't say I got much of that going on....

50. What Is The Last Thing You Purchased?

dinner = tacp bell

Thursday, January 25, 2007

The Scent of a Woman

Chris O'Donnell plays Charlie Simms, a seventeen-year-old boy attending Baerd Prep School for Boys. He is a kind young man with a good soul. For Thanksgiving break he takes a job watching over retired U.S. officer Leitunant Colonel Frank Slade, played by Al Pacino. The Colonel, now blind, is a tough man with a rough exterior (not to mention, a bit of a drunk), but Charlie learns over time that he is kind hearted and has good intentions. He surprises Charlie by telling him they are going on a trip to New York City.

The trip turns out to be an adventure where Charlie will meet Frank's family and find out the true reason he is blind. The whole time in New York they eat at fancy restaurants with $24 hamburgers and stay at the Waldorf. Frank later reveals to Charlie that he is in New York to eat at an expensive restaurant, stay at an amazing hotel, sleep with a beautiful woman, and then commit suicide.

Meanwhile, Charlie is having a dilema at school where him and a fellow student witnessed an act of vandalism on campus and he is being held responsible until he tells what he saw and who did it. The headmaster told him he would take away his chance to go to Harvard if he doesn't fess up.

Charlie is struggling with the problem at school during the weekend in New York. He shares the story with Colonel Slade and Slade gives him advice. They exchange thier views on the matter. Where Charlie stands, he isn't going to rat out anyone and doesn't want to use connections to get into Harvard and risk his honor and character in the meantime.

In a crucial scene of the movie, Charlie has to fight with Slade in order to keep him from commiting suicide. He succeeds in the end and thier friendship and confidence in eachother only grows. By the end of the trip, a true bond has flourished.

Monday, January 22, 2007


Please tell me why I'm wearing this ring on my finger (my right finger that is, don't worry!). This ring was given to me by someone who loved me, who I loved back, very much, with my whole heart, my everything. This ring is now on my finger, I wear it every day. But this ring was not on my finger for a long time. Ok, so I lost it for a while, but during that time, and before, I had deliberatly not worn it for a while. I didn't wear it because I was hurt, I wanted to forget. I didn't want to care.

When I first realized this ring was lost, I was surprised at how upset I was that I could not possess it. When I found it after it being lost, I was surprised at how thrilled I was that it was in my hands again.

Two reasons I love this ring. Two reasons this ring is dear to my heart.

The first is superficial: This ring is a tanzanite ring. I had wanted a tanzanite ring for quite a long time. My mom had said she'd get me one for my Sweet 16, yet that didn't happen. I saw beautiful tanzanite in Mexico and had dreamed of having one of my very own. So for Christmas of 2005, I received one. It was special. But like I said, I really just wanted the tanzanite!

The second reason this ring is dear to my heart, the reason I wear it today, the reason I don't take it off, is because it is more of a symbolism than anything else. This ring reminds me that I once had a great love. In A Bronx Tale (good movie, check it out) a wise man tells a young boy everyone has three great loves in his life. So far, I've only had one. This ring reminds me that I am capable of loving and being loved in return, for this is one of life's greatest treasures. It also reminds me of true friendship. A friendship that is very dear to me, almost non-existant at the moment, but one that I will cherish until the day I die.

Tanzanite is my sweet reminder of a past gone and a future bolder than I can dream at this moment.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

True friends

I'm sitting in my friend Hector's room, watching Tim and Hector play cards, Katy's sitting on the couch eating a pizza from the freezer downstairs, and I'm on the computer, working on a writing project for school. We're all watching The Legend of Bagger Vance. I just have this sense of happiness I have been feeling so often lately. This feeling brings a smile to my face every day. This feeling makes me laugh out loud. This feeling warms my heart. This feeling of knowing I have true friends. Friends who will stand by me no matter what. Friends that are there to help in times of need, with or without asking. Unconditional love and acceptance is always in our midst. We do homework together, have long talks, and laugh incessantly. We are a group, a tight-knit people who wait on eachother every day, hoping to see each other...looking forward to the next time we'll be together to experience something. It's the first time in my life I can honestly say I have a wonderful group of friends who love me as I love them. I'm not concerned about things coming between us. I'm so excited we will all be living in Gainesville together and being able to extend our experiences into the future together. Thanks guys, you are my heart:)